Add another $100 to the pile of money in my desk drawer from what I made tonight.

Sheesh. I'm just really beside myself now. I'm not really sure what it means exactly to be beside yourself, but I think I'm beside myself. I got my tax return of $400 back, and I've got about $400 worth of money from work. I seriously don't know what to do with it. Nyffy needs to borrow some of it, so I guess I can start there. I guess there are always some bills I could pay off in advance. I think I'll get one or two things for myself and save the rest.

It's safe to say that my righteousness level (if there is such a thing), is NOT directly related to the amount of money that God blesses me with. I really don't deserve anything like this. It's a little bit overwhelming to struggle financially 95% of the time you've been alive, and then in the span of a few weeks to be about two months ahead of your bills instead of a month behind. I don't really think I would mind too much if God took it all. At least then I wouldn't be confused as to what that amount of money is doing in my possession. The more you get, the more it just seems like monopoly money. The first number just starts getting more zeros after it. That's all.

Nyffy got his first speeding ticket today. We had a good laugh about the fact that he could call himself an adult now. I guess I'm sort of feeling the same.

Tonight I heard an audblog post on my brother Jason's blog that made me laugh and nearly made me cry at the same time. I heard my little nephew shout into the phone. I envisioned his small pudgy hands grasping at the phone as he shouted into the receiver. I thought about how cute his small face was and his consistently joyful smile as he obviously sounded like he was enjoying time spent with one of his uncles.

I love you Isaac. I couldn't make it to see you, and I would pay all the money I made tonight, just to flip you backwards a few times to hear you yell "back-uh-ferds Uncle Dosh! Back-uh-ferds!" at the top of your lungs.

That would be well worth all of the money I own.