Sometimes you are forced to look back on the year behind you.

I'm getting ready to write a support letter and I don't feel like I've done "well" this past year. I know that man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. I'm dying to know what he sees when he looks at mine. I know he loves me. I just don't know if I've done very well with what he has given me. I feel like the man who was given 1 talent. I feel like I haven't invested wisely. I feel like I've buried it.

As I think of what to tell my supporters about my year, I have to fight down the urge to give them a list of reasons why not to support me. Tell them where I've come up short. Let them know how many times I've screwed up, and how much time I've wasted. Sure I wouldn't raise any money but it would make me feel better to know that they didn't have a false picture of who I am.

On second thought, how about I just tell everyone all of the stuff that God has done rather than what I haven't been able to do on my own. Tell them the thousands of things that I am thankful for. Tell them how God continually blesses my heart and renews my passion. Tell them how my failings are far exceeded by Christ's victory in my life.

hmm.........word.

These carbon shells
These fragile dusty frames
House canvases of souls
We are bruised and broken masterpieces
But we did not paint ourselves

~Switchfoot~

When you can't think of what you want to say, chances are someone has already said it.