I've changed.

Everything used to be a joke to me. My grades, my job, my hygene. I would take pride in my irresponsibility and lack of discipline. Lately God has brought me to the realization that the things that I've always thought of as happening far in the future, are coming dangerously close to the present. People are getting married, getting careers, becoming grown ups. No more working at the local fast food restaurant, or grocery store. People are beginning to have real jobs. My brother and his wife are expecting their second child! Some of these things have sobered me from my obliviously drunk state of thinking.

Another thing that changed today is my view on prayer. In my mind I have repeatedly thought of prayer as uneffective, and ultimately not important. Sadly I've been wrong in this line of thinking and am in desperate need of it's working and healing power.

The last and most important thing that changed today was my focus. When did everything in life get so freaking complicated? When did things like work, or school, come to take presidence in my life? These things are of course important, but in the big scheme of things, they are nothing. They just don't matter.

Something I may never learn though, is the virtue of getting to sleep at a descent hour.

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