Today was interestingly paradoxical.

I slept in till 3:00 in the afternoon and then right after I woke up, I cleaned the apartment and studied for about 2 hours. I went to Bible Study and no guys came, so I left and went to go pay a visit to one of the guys who usually comes but was studying for two big tests. I told him about the possiblility that I might not be leading the Bible Study anymore, because of the lack of guys who are interested. He told me that he didn't want to switch to a new Bible Study and will try to help get some new guys to come. I left feeling hopeful and encouraged rather than feeling hopeless and discouraged. Despite the clear contrast between black and white in the things that have happened today, the day has remained grey. Despite the rain and gloom, I sit before the computer with a small grin on my face, prepared and a little curious about what's going to happen next.