Nyffy and I got to hangout all day yesterday.

We went to go pick up some furniture that he had bought for our apartment this upcoming year. He decided to room with me, so we started planning what the room would look like. We went to a few different places to get some ideas. Bed Bath and Beyond was one of the stores we found ourselves browsing. I couldn't help think of how gay we looked. Then I realized I was probably the only one who was thinking about this. It ended up being an awesome day and I got to hangout with Trinity and Jason when they came into town.

This morning, the family left for Stewart for my nephew Issac's birthday. I have to stay in Orlando because project is not over yet. I'm trying not to think about Issac's animated features as he opens his presents.

I wish I could let him hit me so that I could throw myself onto the ground only to get back up and let him do it over and over. I wish I could see him turn the lights on and off and hear him repeat the word "lights" as he does it. I wish I could see Jason bounce him up and down on the couch to his obvious delight and screams of laughter. I wish I could see his look of dire concentration as he winds up to throw a ball to you. I wish I could see him excitedly wait to have the ball not really thrown to him, but thrown at him.

I wish I could be there to see him. I wish he knew me better. I wish I could explain to him why I'm never there.