I'm tired but not tired enough to sleep.
I'm bored but not bored enough to plan anything fun.
I'm glad the day is over but not glad enough to end it completely.
I'm satisfied with the amount of work I got done today,
but not satisfied enough to feel any great sense of accomplisment.
There is so much more to do, but these things will have to wait until tomorrow.

After work, I saw from Meghan's away message that she was studying. I took a shower, threw on some clothes, and drove over to her dorm in attempts to study with her. After about twenty minutes, she had to leave for a calculus study group. I studied for about five more minutes, but my heart wasn't in it. I left and came back home. On the ride home I got to think about some things. I thought about how after I broke up with Meghan I thought that we would hangout a lot and get to be better friends. Well, with our difference in...ambition?...credit hours? The only time I can find to hangout with Meghan is in silence, studying beside her. That's not really working out great either. Meghan informed me tonight that she has 5 Exams this week. FIVE! That's crazy.

I think there are three kinds of people in this world. People like my friends Bram and Mikey who are the biggest bums, and don't seem to be very ambitious at all. Then there are people like me, who fall somewhere in the middle (notice I didn't say where in the middle). I try and I make some B's and I'm happy with that, but then there are people like Meghan who are incredibly disciplined and ambitious in their studies, and in other areas of their life. They make the A's. The grades that I've always just seen as an unachievable goal and the closer you can come to making one, the better you feel about yourself.

Is there a balance to be found? Is there such a thing as too much school and not enough time with friends? Is this just some idea that I conjured up because I don't do as well as some academically? After finals Meghan is taking off for England to take some more classes. I'm excited for her, and what her future holds. I'm interested to see what things will be like after she gets back. Will we be good friends? Friends? Aquaintances? None of the above?

If Meghan continues to rock hard in her classes, she'll have an awesome career waiting for her, when she finishes school. I wonder what my life is going to look like when I'm done with school. Ministry?

Maybe this is a fork in the road. The only question is, do the roads intersect again, run parallel, or go in seperate directions?

God only knows.